So the other morning after I had actually woke up and had been moving around a bit, I realized something, Growing up sucks and rocks at the same time. My priorities have changed so incredibly much just in the past year that I hardly know who I am anymore and they continue to change at an alarming rate. I no longer want to go hang out until all hours of the morning. It is extremely rare if I am able to stay up past 1 am anymore and is a rare occasion when I do not wake up before 7:30 even on the weekends and my days off. Back just a few years ago I would stay up till 3 or 4 in the morning without even thinking about it and wake up at noon and I wouldn't even bat an eye while doing so. Now if I sleep past 8 I feel like I've lost so much of the day. I know that sounds so odd but that's honestly how I feel. If my Grandfather were around he would be laughing his ass off and telling me, "I told you so." All of those times he professed that I would change as I got older and grew up and I kept promising him "It will never happen to me."
All of the sudden I find myself caring about the future and I mean further out than this coming Friday night and what we are going to be doing. I keep thinking about 5-10 years into the future and where I want to be both physically and financially. In the past I never really gave spending money much thought. Generally if it was something I wanted then I went out and bought it without a second thought. However, over the past two years I have seen myself become very particular with my money, which is to say that I've become a "penny pincher." I have made an art out of talking myself out of purchasing things. I can leave the house fully determined to purchase whatever it was that I wanted...and by the time that I reach the store I am left wondering why i even came because I've completely talked myself out of my "need" for it.
It is very surreal to me because I never thought I would be this type of person and it is somewhat scary for me. Since I never thought that I would actually be the way that I am I can't even imagine what the future holds for me. All I can do is hope for the best and do my best to prepare myself for whatever might come.